At Next Jump, every new hire goes through PLB – or “Personal Leadership Bootcamp.” PLB is a safe environment for new employees to identify their “backhand” – the thing that holds us back from reaching our full potential – and develop practice grounds to tackle it. Kathy shared her journey with us on learning to trust others, starting with her TP Dana.
Hi everyone, this is Kathy from New York.
I started back in April and my backhand is that I don’t trust others to help me because I believe they will let me down and I avoid being vulnerable to prevent that pain.
At the start of my PLB journey, I was resistant of any feedback that told me to open up more. I wondered How much was enough? A lot of my effort went into showing only what I was okay with people knowing and hiding the rest.
One of the most obvious showings of my backhand was the June Academy. I tried to do it all alone. It was in those moments I also realized that I hadn’t been prioritizing my TP relationship with Dana at all. I felt as if I couldn’t rely on her and she felt like I was pushing her away. So after that we both decided together to change the mindset that we were operating under and start again.
We aired all our grievances and we started TP regularly and Dana became the person I would think to go to when I thought “I need to think this out.” It was such a catalyst for change.
As I kept practicing, I started to believe, if I can trust Dana, maybe I could trust someone else. So I opened up to my roommates at home. I’m not ready to trust everyone at once but I can do it a little bit at a time.
I was reflecting on things on the way home before checkpoint 3 and i started crying because I realized how good it felt not to hide anymore.
I still have a very long way to go but I feel good knowing I have Dana to hold my accountable. So thank you to Dana for investing in our relationship with me and to our coaches and judges for pushing us to be better. Without them I wouldn’t be up here right now.